Blessings from the LORD

Well, it has been almost 2 years since my bear attack and last night I had a dream concerning bears (I think that I have only had 2). It wasn't a nightmare, so that is good.

In the dream some bears had came into a camp where I was a counselor. I was so scared for the teens that had went on a hike and luckily, they were coming back right when I went to look for them, so we headed to our cabins then were confronted with these bears between us and our cabin. I had such a large panic attack that I cried and couldn't even function because of my fear. I had to rely on the teens I was with to get me through it. The bad thing is that if faced with a bear in the open, how would I react? I feel that this dream is how I would react and that is very terrifying!

In light of this dream, it made me think of the blessings God has given me in this situation.

• For starters, He saved my life from the bear!
• He healed me faster than the doctors had ever seen.
• I CAN WALK!!
• He has kept nightmares from flooding my dreams.
• He has kept me from thinking about my attack every second of the day.
• In recalling the memories of the day, God has allowed me to not be flooded with emotions.
• He is keeping me mentally sane [at least with this subject :)]

The lawyer has made comments about me not getting upset and having no need for counseling. I think that he is concerned about it and I guess I kind of am when it comes to a deposition or a trial (if it goes that far). But the only thing I can say is that the Lord has laid His Hand upon me and has made it so that I can handle it. The only thing that I have a big problem with (besides my physical appearance and lost functions) is my panic attacks while hiking. But the Lord is there too! I will get this awful feeling that there may be a bear and I just want to run out of the woods as fast as I can. That's when I call upon the Lord...I stop and pray...I pray until the feeling is lifted and I can continue.

"Fear thou not; For I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."
Isaiah 41:10

"For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee."
Isaiah 41:13


I AM SOO THANKFUL FOR THE LORD'S GREAT BLESSINGS!